big goals and lil goals

So, I did my New Years Eve thing. I cried over the last year and just how crappy it's been, but I smiled about the things that have turned out okay. It was healing and refreshing; and then it was time to look toward the new year.

I'm not a person who thinks New Years Day is a clean slate. To me it isn't; I have the same life and the same problems. However, I think it is a physical reminder of sorts of starting over or doing better. A day to put your best foot forward.

I chose not to. Instead I buried myself among my clippings, quotes, notebooks, journals, and really old family videos. I read my weight journal from 10 years ago...a weight I have now come back too *sigh*, and watched in the videos how my weight (and outlook on life) progressed. When I was happy I looked better, carried myself upright, and was more active; when life sucked I slouched, wore sweats, and just kinda bummed around. My outside reflected my inside and it showed for everyone to see.

I wrote a list of the things I need to work on everyday: Physical, Emotional, Spiritual, Intellectual, and Nutritional. Under each I have a list of activities that I can do once a day. I want to be me again. Whole, healthy, and strong in all the ways I need to.

I can do this.